Say HEEEEEY to Ja'Myya!!

Ja'Myya is one of my newfound favorite persons. I haven't known her for that long, but I feel like she's been in my life for eons. Myya is married to my best friend, so by default, she's my best friend lol. She is one of those people that you just automatically click with, ya know? Her way of joking, her open mind, her smile, her love for herself, her passion for truly living. She's a one of a kind that fits in by standing out. Her vibrations keep you lifted. She takes a lane and turns it completely into her own. 

While we still have yet to 'meet' in person (*ehem*), I am blessed to have been able to call her my friend. She's more than demonstrated how loyal she is. When she says something, she means it with her whole heart. Her peaceful semblance resonates with who she actually is. Not a show, or just a pretty photo. Ja' Myya is also a bomb mother, hair stylist, henna artist, photographer, the list goes on. I know as time goes on, my mission of stealing her from my best friend will be accomplished lol! 

When I asked Myya what makes her most proud to be a woman, she said:

What makes me proud to be a woman.

I am able to set a positive example for young black girls. Especially in the world we live in today where we are born into self-hate. A lot of pressure is put on all women to be so much while still being ourselves. For years I lost who I was. I was Lisa's daughter. Alicia's little sister. Khayce's mom. I was everything to other people other than ME. And it took a lot of strength and self-evaluation to find Ja'Myya. But those tough times are what helped make me who I am today. Losing myself in other people's happiness helped me find me. 

Life is precious and as a woman, I am proud that I am able to assist in the creation of life, and carry that life for 9 months and then give birth to a beautiful life that has the potential to make an impact on the world. I'm proud to be a wife. I'm his peace in the middle of chaos, his nurse when he's sick, a masseuse when he's sore, and cosmetologist when his locs need to be retwisted, a cook when he's hungry. I'm proud to be a mother. For my children I am a source of nurture, a bridge throughout life as they figure out their own paths and a shoulder to cry on as they make mistakes. 

I'm proud to be a woman because of the beautiful people God put in my life.

Well put don't you agree? Keep being YOU Ja'Myya and the rest will follow. Today, I honor you boo! 

Women Making History Series: Catherine

Y'all say Heeeey to Catherine!!!

Catherine and I have known one another since the fourth grade. THE. FOURTH. GRADE. We're reaching 30, so you guys do the math. This woman is without a doubt a diamond. The smile you see in the photo above is how I've ALWAYS known Catherine- positive, cheerful. Even when I've seen her sad that smile was always right behind it. She has NEVER switched up her personality for anyone or anything. She has always stayed true to herself, she's NEVER passed judgment on others, and she's so loving y'all. Catherine is really one of those people you always want to hang with. Her spirit is contagious!! You can't help but be in a good mood around her because she won't let you be sad for too long. 

When I had my 2 oldest daughters, Catherine (and her mama) came to see me both times. I never told her how much that meant to me. She's been a consistent friend in my life and we don't have to speak daily to know that the love is there. I'm so proud of her, literally, I'm proud of her entire life. She never quit on her goals, she's an excellent mother, and now she's married!! I just love her so much and I'm getting emotional writing this. 

When I asked her what makes her most proud to be a woman, she said:

Okay. I'm proud to be the first one in my family to get a Bachelors Degree. Proud to be a mother of 2 smart young black boys. Proud of having the strength to work for all I have. Proud of being with my husband for 10 years and (now) married to him. Proud to come from a strong black woman who has raised her kids to be strong black individuals of society.

Catherine is a light. If you ever meet her, you'll see what I mean. I'm so blessed to know her. Today, I honor you girl!

Women Making History Series: Keisha

Everybody say Heeeeey to Keisha!!! 

She's such a gentle spirit, y'all. Her aura oozes confident modesty if that makes sense. She's a refreshing and pleasantly humbled individual that makes you want to know more about her.  She makes sure her first priority is her relationship with God and incorporates that in everything she touches. Oh yeah, can't forget about how her sense of style gives me LIIIIFE!!!! 

Keisha and I met at our church, Higher Dimension. I was interested in being apart of an event that took place at the time called The Answer Conference. Slightly later on down the line during my dark moment, she reached out to me and just spoke affirmations of life continuing. But it meant so much more to me. It's all of what she said, how she said it, and it wasn't just prayer. This was yet another person that didn't know me but related to me. Ever since then, whenever we see one another or there's a moment of a check in (cuz she's busy and booked alright) it's always greetings of hugs followed by the warmest smile. 

One thing that I admire about Keisha is the way she WERKS, and goes without missing a beat. Even if she has a moment of being down, you can best believe she's NEVER out- so don't ever sleep on her. 

When I approached her with the question of what makes her most proud to be a woman, this was her response:

"I love the fact that God took His time with creating a woman, “God fashioned the woman...” (Genesis 2:22). He took His time creating the being that would need to be filled with wisdom, soft to hold and care for and strong enough to bring life into this world. I’m capable of loving a man to his greatest potential, bring life into this world, bear (raise) our children, be the backbone of the family/home, accelerate in my career, focus daily on my spiritual growth and etc while doing my very best to slay every day! Being a woman is a full-time, no off days, work every holiday, overtime everyday responsibility and one that I’m honored to be a part of!"

That's everything! Today, I honor you!

Women Making History Series: Bianca

Y'all say heeeeeeeey to my boo thang, Bianca

Bianca and I actually met through Deneka! We were both bloggers at the 2015 Nzuri Natural Hair Expo. Ever since then, she's become my sweetheart! Bianca is HI-lar-I-ous!! There has never been a time where we’ve been somewhere that she hasn’t had me dying laughing! I mean to tears and stomach hurting. She's a joy to be around.

Bianca is also one of the most transparent people I know. She's one of my friends that I know I share in-depth similarities with. She'll let you know with the quickness that she's an open book and what you see/hear from her is exactly what you get. That's one of the many qualities she has that's allowed our friendship to bloom. Anything she has, I'm supporting somehow and she does that same thing for me. We don't have to see one another or even speak every single day to know that we're friends. It's one of those when we link up it's over with types of connections.


One of the things I love and admire about her is her tenacious ways of going through life, even in dark times. She bounces back that's for damn sure.


When I hit her up and asked her what makes her proud to be a woman, she said:

"What makes me proud to be a woman.. well I'm proud to be a woman because being a woman is like being a superhero- I mean I feel a woman can handle any situation that's thrown at us. I'm glad I can express my feelings. My daddy passed away when I was 4 years old and I was raised by a strong woman. The woman I am today is all because of the woman I was raised by and all the credit goes to her."

That's all there is to it. Bianca boo, my sister, my friend, today I honor you! 💜

Women Making History Series: Kim (Isis)

This is Kim. She also goes by Isis. Either way, say HEEEEY!!! 

Kim is the BOMB! The b-o-m-b! This woman is the one that will get you allllll the way togeva (yes, with a v), doing so with love. Isis and I "met" on Periscope lol. One day around the time Periscope had just started to pop, her scope came up in my feed so I decided to watch. It was herself and her crazy roommate/business partner Alton talking about relationships. After that, I followed her on every social media platform she had and made sure I interacted with her whenever she was on. Later on that year, Isis and her crew came to Houston to be apart of the Nzuri Natural Hair Expo. Meeting her was beyond everything!! Her spirit was and still is very contagious, it was warm, it was nurturing, it was a blessing.

When she speaks to you, be ready to change your life and your current state of mind because when she's done...you will NEVA be the same. She'll have you questioning yourself like 'Why didn't I think about it this way before??' You may cry too so just have some tissue on standby. Isis is extremely pro-black & pro-woman; from shopping with and shouting out black businesses to speaking to women at events all over, to writing and releasing her own book (find it here) to aid women in finding their inner peace. Isis is really the total package and doesn't bend, fold, flip-flop, or phony in anything she's ever done. It has been an honor to get to know someone like her.

I asked her what makes her most proud to be a woman. Her response: 

"I believe that our ability to cultivate vision makes me most proud to be a woman. Woman by nature can see the possibility and potential in others.  We take this ability and nurture it to help bring out the best in that being.  This is a strength that most women are unaware they even possess.  I call it the "Eve Effect".  Once you become aware of it, you understand its value.  Unfortunately, many sisters are expending this precious gift on people who are unworthy of our cultivation.  In my book, I discuss this in detail... basically Ladies, "put your chisel down!"  Stop giving so much of yourselves to build a man for someone else.  The man that requires that cultivating spirit will be YOUR Man, husband, someone who has proved their worth."

*Snap, Snap.* Today, I honor you!

Women Making History Series: Victoria

Everybody give a huge HEEEY to Victoria! 

Victoria is quite possibly the most liberating woman I've ever met. She's unapologetically herself through & through. If you ever get the chance to speak with her, you will see that she's an indubitable ray of sunshine and breath of fresh air. 

Do y'all see her eyes? That's what drew me to her. They told a story before we even spoke. We met at the same blogging event that Crysy and I met in 2016. Just ended up next to one another and got to mingling. Another match made from the universe! Her spirit is just as addicting as her smile, and the way she roots for everybody black on top of femininity!!!! Child!!! Never met another like her.

Little does she know, I've learned ALOOOT from her from our initial conversation, to our play date meetup at McDonald's, to watching her recent live videos. She's an incredible advocate for so many issues in this crazy world and she stands up for what she belives in- I admire that. Another thing I'm paying attention to is the way she teaches her children about life itself, but one thing that stands out is the fact that she's a sex positive parent. A topic that is extremely sensitve in today's world for whatever reason, yet she makes sure her children know who they are inside and out. I just love it!!

When I asked Ms. Victoria what makes her most proud to be a woman, this is what she had to say:

"Growing up, I never heard a lot of positive things about about women without first comparing them to men. I got the impression that women were nothing compared to men.

I was conditioned to believe that we didn't matter as much. Stories that I'd often read about told how women were married off in order to payoff or avoid debt; how fathers always wanted sons and only sons could carry the family name. 

Surely the masculine must be more important.

       I remember learning that in China they were only allowed to have one child with most families preferring a male. And you hear stories about female genital mutilation. About traditions of having multiple wives... polygamy. One would think that something like polyandry didn't even exist.

Each image of society portraying the feminine as the lowly victim, the weakest link, the burden, or the helpless and hopeless.

When I was a little girl in church, I remember a woman who stood before our congregation to say she had been called upon by God to minister in our church. There was so much commotion; I remember it like it was yesterday.

My grandmother would talk about the church meetings they had to discuss whether a woman belonged in the pulpit because of her menstrual cycle. Saying that the menstrual cycle rendered a woman unclean and blah blah blah blah blah. I dare not repeat the rest of that statement; it just doesn't resonate with me.

There were few images of us being loved and cared for and treated gently and deliberately, the way we should be. Fewer of our strength in its own essence. Few of us being considered as individuals. Many times we are lumped in with the children as though our worth is not quite enough on its own. Even today this is true.

At the same time I was also receiving a lot of low energy and negative images of being black as well. That too is still true.

So when you combine the two you might believe that it is difficult to think greatness of yourself to be both a woman and be black. But oh, you would be so wrong!

Despite these negative energy images that I am being bombarded with daily throughout my life, at 32 years old I can stand and say through every struggle, through every hardship, through every injustice, through every sexual trauma, through every emotional abuse, I could never be more glad to be a woman.

This is why I am proud to be a woman.  Through everything we are subjected to as women, I still love being this Being. How!? how!? Pure divinity! I am God.

Being a woman, I have learned what it truly means to have strength, what it truly means to be beautiful, and resilient in great contrast to what I had been conditioned to believe.

As women, we are more powerful than is physically measurable.

I think our greatest Journey in life is self discovery. But if you cannot see who you are then you cannot discover Who that is. The experience of being a black woman is constantly revealing to me who I AM. On this journey, I'm climbing the spiritual ladder of experiences and growth. l am evolving on the most significant evolutionary spectrum. This journey of being the black woman has the beauty to transform us into spiritual Masters.

This is what makes me most proud to be a woman."

See what I mean? Ev-er-y-thang!!! Today, I honor you!💜

Women Making History Series: La'Torria

Say a big HEEY to La'Torria!! 

This lady here is someone I would dub as a powerhouse. She has an insane work ethic, a pretty dope sense of style (especially when she wears anything with lemons on it, Lemon is her last name), and a certain presence of humility. I was afforded the opportunity to be behind the scenes of a couple of events here in Houston because of her. I believe the first press type of event I'd ever done was for Gospel artist Chad Brawley's album release party, I give many thanks to La'Torria for that. She has this uniqueness about her that can't be cloned even if you tried. TRUST ME. She keeps the same demeanor and grace with everything she puts her hands on- & there's been ALOT of events, people, places, and every other description of a noun there is that she's been involved in.

It's definitely a treat to watch La'Torria WERK, because of the way she commands the room with a smile. Overall, she's been a blessing to my life and in my writing. She's helped me see the other side and added onto my faith in myself in my journey of blogging. When I asked her what makes her most proud to be a woman, she stated:

"I am proud to be a woman because of the legacy of women. Women are strong, beautiful, talented, driven, multitaskers, go-getters, nurturers, and I could go on and on and on. The essence of a woman cannot be duplicated. Although at times being a woman can be tough, I find the beauty in being able to overcome difficulties, find my strength and continue to press forward. 

The woman I am today has a lot to do with other women who took the time to sow into me. When I think of strong women who have been influential in my process of life, I must acknowledge those that I've looked up to such as my mentors, Saptosa Foster, Shante Bacon, Stacey Lee, LaTesha Washington, Gaylin Josho, Kim Gagne and my Auntie Cheryl. In addition to my family, I take pride in knowing that my mentors and influential women in my life believe in me; therefore I strive to make them proud. It is a blessing to be able to gain strength from other strong women when I may become weak, but it is also a blessing to be able to sow into others. The things I've learned thus far has prepared me to be a mentor to dozens of other young women. Whether it's mentoring my pageant girls, mentoring high school students, or mentoring women within my industry, I love seeing women stick together and WIN! That alone makes me proud.

 Women all over the world, I'm proud of you. I may not know every woman in the world, but I can appreciate every woman. Take a moment today to show your appreciation to some of the special women in your life. #GirlPower"

Today, I honor you! 💜

Women Making History Series: Crysy

Y'all, say heeeey to Crysy!!! When I tell y'all I'm so extremely proud of this woman right here!!!
Crysy and I met at the beginning of 2016 at a blogging event. She was so shy & off in the cut to herself!! Literally!! I can't remember who spoke to who first, but either way, I'm grateful that we were brought together! Mid-conversation, a fellow blogger snapped a pic of us, we exchanged information, and we've been cool ever since. That very same year in December, the shy lady had her very first women's empowerment event entitled The Road To Freedom. And it was nothing short of phenomenal!! Since then she's branched out with more events in 2 separate series and makes sure she connects with other women. When she changed her way of thinking, ultimately, it changed her life.

The more I get to learn about Crysy, the more I love her. The more I see her unfold and blossom, the more she inspires me to keep pushing. I'm gonna continue to support any and everything that she decides to do because she truly is the definition of stepping out on faith. She's as real as they come, she's genuine, and she dresses her ass off do ya hear me?!

When I asked her what made her most proud of being a woman, she said:

"What makes me proud to be a woman... I am proud because as a woman, I have been mentally and spiritually broken,& I still got up every morning to take care of my family, went to work, ran businesses, went to school and a plethora of other things...I was so strong to other people.  Once I faced my fears and issues... I became strong to MYSELF." 

That's a WORD, okay!!?? Today, I honor you my darling. 💜

Women Making History Series: Sonja (My Mama)

The month of March means a couple different things to me. It's a month of manifestation, a month of miracles, but one of the most important things: celebrating womanhood. Not that I don't do that every day already, I guess because it's "nationally" recognized. Anywho, in honor of this year's Women's History Month (& beyond), I decided to do an honors series on some of the amazing & dope women that I know personally or have had the chance to meet on more than one occasion. These women have made huge marks on my journey in life and I am beyond grateful that I get the chance to say I know them. So without further ado, I present to you, my Mama.

Everybody say heeeey to Sonja!!

My Muva, the woman that carried and birthed me, and who is literally the strongest woman I know.

 At 53 years young, she's in her second battle with cancer. Stomach cancer to be exact. From the pic above you couldn't even tell. She's kicking cancer's ass with grace, style, and a whole lotta fierce with a dash of peace. When I asked her what made her most proud to be a woman, her answer was simple: 

"Love and the experience of having a child." 

My mother also thoroughly enjoys being a Grandma (and loves the name even more). When I say she ADORES her grandkids, that's an understatement. If you have ever met her or ever had the chance to speak to her once, I can guarantee she will bring my babies up. One of the things I love the most about my mother is her versatility. She's one (of 3) of the reasons why I listen to half of the genres of music that I do, have tried some of the food that I now love, and half the reason why I can go from extra calm to a firecracker in .003 seconds lol. 

My mother is a survivor, my mother is truly a conqueror, my mother is love, my mother is....a woman! Today I honor you. 💜

That kind of love...

I wrote this in 2008... it resurfaced because my 'mother' commented on it via Facebook this morning and said "you betta write". LOL. I reread it. I tweaked it a bit. And here we are, on the blog. Enjoy. 


Maybe he's out there,maybe he's not. I know I've been longing for him...

He's kind.He's gentle. Never judgmental. Extremely understanding.Versatile...never thinks I'm tryna be anything else because of what I listen to, look at, or believe in. He likes to make love & lay, not fuck & bounce.He's got a great head on his shoulders,a hustler-knows what he wants and knows how to get it the right way.Never a product of his environment-no matter what environment.

Honest. Real. True. No matter what. Never lie to me. Willing to fight for his when someone is in the wrong. 

I love for my guy to have his own mind...meaning he never lets his friends influence his decisions-good or bad. He's a man of the Almighty-not the phony kind either lol. He knows the meaning of real unconditional love,pure, satisfying on both ends, and eternal. He's a family man, loves and respects his mom (if she's in his life)-women in general- treats his woman like his queen-not just the figure of speech but literally. Cooks for me when I'm tired, rub me when I ache, kiss me when I'm sad, holds me just because he loves my embrace, my scent, the beating of my heart against his own. Never disrespectful but knows how to lay down the law.

Intriguing to the mind, one that understands how the foundation of a conversation is supposed to flow. Understands how important & beneficial an actual phone call is versus a textual encounter. It could be simply about the weather or about problems in Africa, voice to voice, face to face is so much better. I love a guy that can teach me things (not how much a sac is or how to hit this lick lol), things that matter because I am a quick study. When things aren't going so well we get through them together never falling for the outsiders looking in b.s. talk...

Someone who loves me for me and not my assets...tells me I'm beautiful and means it and not just "Ma, you sexy as fuck". There are times and places for that. Even when we just saw each other 5 minutes ago he is willing & able to say I miss you- but at the same token knows the meaning of space. Never tries to control me, i.e. set times for me to be home especially if i have my own, getting jealous because me and my girls are going out,and the biggest thing...saying I never have time for you-especially now. I'm a mother. I work. I blog. I have multiple visions. When there's a will there's most definitely a way.

Speaking of that last paragraph- don't be jealous of me or what I do. Support. No need to further elaborate.

These are just some of the things I see...again maybe you're out there.Maybe not. But I know I'm falling in love where ever you may be. I hope you come to me sooner or later so we can build our life together...

Chad Brawley Album Release: An experience you had to BE THERE for!

I was blessed with the opportunity to cover this marvelous concert event for Houston native & worship artist, Chad Brawley. His debut album, The WeWorship Project, is co-produced by Grammy nominated producers Terence Vaughn and Cedric Smith. It also features guest vocals & appearances by Cheryl Fortune, Sheri Jones- Moffett, Daniel Johnson, Gene Moore, and others. All ticket sales from this event went to the Big Brothers Big Sisters organization. I'm sure like most of you reading, this is my first time hearing of Chad, and if so all I can say is: thank me later! Scroll over the links to check  him out!

Now on to the event...


Let me tell you, it was a true worship encounter!! The red carpet before-so many artists gathered under the roof of The Luke Church to support and congratulate Chad. The Walls Group, Brian Courtney Wilson, Eric Carrington, author Jotina Buck, along with a plethora of others. There was so much love in the building.

Amber Shaw w/ The Walls Group, Brian Courtney Wilson, Eric Carrington & Jotina Buck; Dr. Timothy Sloan Pastor of Luke Church w/ Antre'chelle Dorsey

 I can honestly say Mr. Brawley is a hidden gem that has begun to surface and shine. It may be because the songs from the album were performed live, but the arrangements in every song-my God- I FELT every harmony, every note! They took me there. They sent me into my mode of just thanks, prayer, love, the whole nine! A poet whom I never heard of by the name of Sharee Johnson was one of the many guest appearances there. I bet I followed her on every piece of social media she has after hearing her speak the Word through spoken word lol. That woman is ANOINTED!!

Poet Sharee Johnson

There was a "contest" ,if you will, during one of the intermissions for a copy of The WeWorship Project. People were picked randomly from the audience and there were 2 categories: the younger generation singing an older hymn, and the older generation singing a gospel song that was no older than 5 years ago.

The young man pictured above blew us all away!! Power certainly escaped his lungs and placed praise on our hearts! He received a suiting roaring standing ovation.

There were 2 women selected for the 5 year and younger song challenge, but as you can see the one pictured above took it on home! The entire building stood and hollered for her. She took us to CHUUCH and set the perfect tone for the second half of the concert. Of course I have all the images so enjoy!!

Chad ministering through song

Jojo Martin; Chad's godbrother & fellow gospel artist

This concert was one of a kind and an overall blessing to my spirit. This album is definitely gonna be dubbed as a new favorite. I left this place full!! So full of inspiration, love, along with new connections! I want to send a special thank you to La' Torria Lemon of Lemon Lime Light Media for this amazing invite!

Don't forget to check out all the individuals listed throughout this post, and purchase a copy of Chad Brawley's debut album The WeWorship Project. Create new vibes, give God all the glory and remember

PS!!!

Here is a video to place you into the spirit!! Hope you like it!

Here's a video!duced by Grammy nominated producers Terence Vaughn and Cedric Smith

Suicide Awareness Month: You Are NOT Alone

Sept. 10th is National Suicide Awareness Day
Love on the wrist in support

Today is September 13th, 2016. Today would have been my cousin's 28th birthday...

May 31st, 2016 I got a text from my mother. A text that confused me, a text that startled me, a text that would break my heart. She simply said "Nikki's dead". I called her IMMEDIATELY. She confirmed it to be true. There were other speculations of course, but there was no denying the fact that she had taken her own life. 

My cousin suffered from depression- in mass amounts. She fought through it day by day. She still smiled. She still laughed. She still conversed. But even with that there was SO much she was going through internally. How do I know this? She told me. Growing up, I would come visit Texas for the summer. Whenever I would spend time with her, we would stay up all throughout the night sharing secrets, sharing pain, sharing tears, and bursts of laughter. We were close.  One of the things we had in common that we helped one another through was depression, and suicidal thoughts/ attempts. We were each other's safe place. A lot of the pain she held onto, she wasn't able to shake it. We grew up, I stopped visiting as much. We both had kids. Life happened. Fast forward, I moved to Texas. When we saw one another again, it was like we never had a brief decline. We picked up exactly where we left off. Reminiscing, laughs, love, sharing more secrets...

Nikki & I in our younger days

I have the guilt of not being there as much as I should have been, as an adult, like how I was when we were growing up. I felt like I could have saved her life if I would have just been more present. We lost contact last year. The last conversation we had was through text. I was going through a bout of homelessness, and was about to get a car and she text me to check on me. I love you were the last things we said to one another. Earlier this year I thought about her ALOT. I kept saying I would contact her, but kept putting it off. 

I truly believe our souls were connected though. The day/night before she died, I kept singing this song called Leavin' by The Tony Rich Project. I sang and hummed it all day. I drove home that night playing it on repeat. The next morning, the song remained in my head until about 30 minutes before I received the text from my mother. It stopped out of no where. For those of you that aren't familiar with it, the chorus goes:

Said I'll be leavin'

I'm looking for my wings in the sky

My journey's long over and my body's tired

So when I'm leavin' 

I'll make sure I'll tell you goodbye 

I know somebody really loves me

But I gotta be leavin' 

Depression is so severely real. So many people feel as if they have no one to speak to about it. Suicidal thoughts are real, and should be taken seriously. I know there are people out there that do it for attention, but all I ask is that you pay attention. Learn the difference. Don't blow it off- EVER. If someone is coming to you and speaking about what they've been experiencing mentally, don't say 'you need help' or 'I'll pray for you'. Be ACTIVE. Be THERE. Dig deeper. I came across the perfect meme the other day about suicide: 

And it's true. Those of us that have been there, knows all to well how it feels to feel crazy, or alone, or left out. Simply because we try to express how we feel but it never seems to work that way. People avoid the subject of depression and suicide. I have family members that know I suffer from depression, but because they aren't educated enough on it (or because they are in denial that their loved one is 'one of them') they simply ignore it, or say 'you need to get out of that'. There is nothing to get out of, when it hits, it hits. 

The point of this post is simply for awareness while sharing my story of being even more affected by suicide. If you have a loved one that trusts you enough to let you in, don't take it for granted. Trust me when I say it takes ALOT of courage to speak on it. Educate yourself. Ask questions. But again NEVER EVER IGNORE IT!! 

Be safe & remember

White Poppies & Warwick Avenue

It's like I'm caught in freshly laid cement, slowly turning into concrete, engulfing me, not allowing me to get back ... Back to fresh air, to growing, patching up the petals, healing my roots. How silly of me to think I was the only flower in your garden...or at least the most tended to, the most nourished, the one you shed your light to, ultimately. Over time I grew dehydrated, gasping for a drop of something, anything to quench my longing thirst, something to fulfill me. The sun...or maybe the storm...yes the storm cast over on me. Out from the clouds poured down the serum that I was searching for-something deeper than water. This serum, extinguished every memory, not just of you... Her too. Every elation, every delight, every bliss. Every laugh. 

Now what do I do with this? This serum has overtaken my natural yearning for Adam's ale. This is all that has been comforting my foundation. I needed to medicate, meditate... Rejuvenate. The only way I can bloom again. Spring, blossom...plant new seeds around me. Drink from new streams, I have to let these summer rains in to fructify my crop. 

I said all this to say... I forgive you... Both. I needed this to happen. I became swallowed and distracted by others' woes and life battles that I could not see my own. I thank you...both. For bringing LIFE to my forefront. This was a very difficult assessment for me, one that I did not think I would pass at all. Rage, fire, blackouts, blank outs and all. I want more for myself. This helped me get out of my writer's rut. This helped me to begin again. So once more...thank you. To be continued... 

Supanaptural Ree is back!!!

John 4:13-14 Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”