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That kind of love...

Saturday, December 10, 2016

I wrote this in 2008... it resurfaced because my 'mother' commented on it via Facebook this morning and said "you betta write". LOL. I reread it. I tweaked it a bit. And here we are, on the blog. Enjoy. 


Maybe he's out there,maybe he's not. I know I've been longing for him...

He's kind.He's gentle. Never judgmental. Extremely understanding.Versatile...never thinks I'm tryna be anything else because of what I listen to, look at, or believe in. He likes to make love & lay, not fuck & bounce.He's got a great head on his shoulders,a hustler-knows what he wants and knows how to get it the right way.Never a product of his environment-no matter what environment.

Honest. Real. True. No matter what. Never lie to me. Willing to fight for his when someone is in the wrong. 

I love for my guy to have his own mind...meaning he never lets his friends influence his decisions-good or bad. He's a man of the Almighty-not the phony kind either lol. He knows the meaning of real unconditional love,pure, satisfying on both ends, and eternal. He's a family man, loves and respects his mom (if she's in his life)-women in general- treats his woman like his queen-not just the figure of speech but literally. Cooks for me when I'm tired, rub me when I ache, kiss me when I'm sad, holds me just because he loves my embrace, my scent, the beating of my heart against his own. Never disrespectful but knows how to lay down the law.

Intriguing to the mind, one that understands how the foundation of a conversation is supposed to flow. Understands how important & beneficial an actual phone call is versus a textual encounter. It could be simply about the weather or about problems in Africa, voice to voice, face to face is so much better. I love a guy that can teach me things (not how much a sac is or how to hit this lick lol), things that matter because I am a quick study. When things aren't going so well we get through them together never falling for the outsiders looking in b.s. talk...

Someone who loves me for me and not my assets...tells me I'm beautiful and means it and not just "Ma, you sexy as fuck". There are times and places for that. Even when we just saw each other 5 minutes ago he is willing & able to say I miss you- but at the same token knows the meaning of space. Never tries to control me, i.e. set times for me to be home especially if i have my own, getting jealous because me and my girls are going out,and the biggest thing...saying I never have time for you-especially now. I'm a mother. I work. I blog. I have multiple visions. When there's a will there's most definitely a way.

Speaking of that last paragraph- don't be jealous of me or what I do. Support. No need to further elaborate.

These are just some of the things I see...again maybe you're out there.Maybe not. But I know I'm falling in love where ever you may be. I hope you come to me sooner or later so we can build our life together...




Chad Brawley Album Release: An experience you had to BE THERE for!

Friday, September 30, 2016








I was blessed with the opportunity to cover this marvelous concert event for Houston native & worship artist, Chad Brawley. His debut album, The WeWorship Project, is co-produced by Grammy nominated producers Terence Vaughn and Cedric Smith. It also features guest vocals & appearances by Cheryl Fortune, Sheri Jones- Moffett, Daniel Johnson, Gene Moore, and others. All ticket sales from this event went to the Big Brothers Big Sisters organization. I'm sure like most of you reading, this is my first time hearing of Chad, and if so all I can say is: thank me later! Scroll over the links to check  him out!

Now on to the event...


Let me tell you, it was a true worship encounter!! The red carpet before-so many artists gathered under the roof of The Luke Church to support and congratulate Chad. The Walls Group, Brian Courtney Wilson, Eric Carrington, author Jotina Buck, along with a plethora of others. There was so much love in the building.



Amber Shaw w/ The Walls Group, Brian Courtney Wilson, Eric Carrington & Jotina Buck; Dr. Timothy Sloan Pastor of Luke Church w/ Antre'chelle Dorsey



 I can honestly say Mr. Brawley is a hidden gem that has begun to surface and shine. It may be because the songs from the album were performed live, but the arrangements in every song-my God- I FELT every harmony, every note! They took me there. They sent me into my mode of just thanks, prayer, love, the whole nine! A poet whom I never heard of by the name of Sharee Johnson was one of the many guest appearances there. I bet I followed her on every piece of social media she has after hearing her speak the Word through spoken word lol. That woman is ANOINTED!!




Poet Sharee Johnson




There was a "contest" ,if you will, during one of the intermissions for a copy of The WeWorship Project. People were picked randomly from the audience and there were 2 categories: the younger generation singing an older hymn, and the older generation singing a gospel song that was no older than 5 years ago.





The young man pictured above blew us all away!! Power certainly escaped his lungs and placed praise on our hearts! He received a suiting roaring standing ovation.









There were 2 women selected for the 5 year and younger song challenge, but as you can see the one pictured above took it on home! The entire building stood and hollered for her. She took us to CHUUCH and set the perfect tone for the second half of the concert. Of course I have all the images so enjoy!!



Chad ministering through song



Jojo Martin; Chad's godbrother & fellow gospel artist






This concert was one of a kind and an overall blessing to my spirit. This album is definitely gonna be dubbed as a new favorite. I left this place full!! So full of inspiration, love, along with new connections! I want to send a special thank you to La' Torria Lemon of Lemon Lime Light Media for this amazing invite!

Don't forget to check out all the individuals listed throughout this post, and purchase a copy of Chad Brawley's debut album The WeWorship Project. Create new vibes, give God all the glory and remember



PS!!!

Here's a video!duced by Grammy nominated producers Terence Vaughn and Cedric Smith

Suicide Awareness Month: You Are NOT Alone

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Sept. 10th is National Suicide Awareness Day
Love on the wrist in support



Today is September 13th, 2016. Today would have been my cousin's 28th birthday...

May 31st, 2016 I got a text from my mother. A text that confused me, a text that startled me, a text that would break my heart. She simply said "Nikki's dead". I called her IMMEDIATELY. She confirmed it to be true. There were other speculations of course, but there was no denying the fact that she had taken her own life. 

My cousin suffered from depression- in mass amounts. She fought through it day by day. She still smiled. She still laughed. She still conversed. But even with that there was SO much she was going through internally. How do I know this? She told me. Growing up, I would come visit Texas for the summer. Whenever I would spend time with her, we would stay up all throughout the night sharing secrets, sharing pain, sharing tears, and bursts of laughter. We were close.  One of the things we had in common that we helped one another through was depression, and suicidal thoughts/ attempts. We were each other's safe place. A lot of the pain she held onto, she wasn't able to shake it. We grew up, I stopped visiting as much. We both had kids. Life happened. Fast forward, I moved to Texas. When we saw one another again, it was like we never had a brief decline. We picked up exactly where we left off. Reminiscing, laughs, love, sharing more secrets...

Nikki & I in our younger days


I have the guilt of not being there as much as I should have been, as an adult, like how I was when we were growing up. I felt like I could have saved her life if I would have just been more present. We lost contact last year. The last conversation we had was through text. I was going through a bout of homelessness, and was about to get a car and she text me to check on me. I love you were the last things we said to one another. Earlier this year I thought about her ALOT. I kept saying I would contact her, but kept putting it off. 

I truly believe our souls were connected though. The day/night before she died, I kept singing this song called Leavin' by The Tony Rich Project. I sang and hummed it all day. I drove home that night playing it on repeat. The next morning, the song remained in my head until about 30 minutes before I received the text from my mother. It stopped out of no where. For those of you that aren't familiar with it, the chorus goes:

Said I'll be leavin'
I'm looking for my wings in the sky
My journey's long over and my body's tired
So when I'm leavin' 
I'll make sure I'll tell you goodbye 
I know somebody really loves me
But I gotta be leavin' 

Depression is so severely real. So many people feel as if they have no one to speak to about it. Suicidal thoughts are real, and should be taken seriously. I know there are people out there that do it for attention, but all I ask is that you pay attention. Learn the difference. Don't blow it off- EVER. If someone is coming to you and speaking about what they've been experiencing mentally, don't say 'you need help' or 'I'll pray for you'. Be ACTIVE. Be THERE. Dig deeper. I came across the perfect meme the other day about suicide: 
And it's true. Those of us that have been there, knows all to well how it feels to feel crazy, or alone, or left out. Simply because we try to express how we feel but it never seems to work that way. People avoid the subject of depression and suicide. I have family members that know I suffer from depression, but because they aren't educated enough on it (or because they are in denial that their loved one is 'one of them') they simply ignore it, or say 'you need to get out of that'. There is nothing to get out of, when it hits, it hits. 

The point of this post is simply for awareness while sharing my story of being even more affected by suicide. If you have a loved one that trusts you enough to let you in, don't take it for granted. Trust me when I say it takes ALOT of courage to speak on it. Educate yourself. Ask questions. But again NEVER EVER IGNORE IT!! 


Be safe & remember







...& we hate po-po... Wanna kill us dead in the street for sho'::

Thursday, July 7, 2016

More murders of African American men have taken place by the boys in blue. This takes me back to just 2 weekends ago when a friend of mine and myself were pulled over...by a white cop. Back up to even 2 weeks before that. I was pulled over by a black cop... Doing 70 in a 60. This cop was very calm, very easy to talk to (considering the fact I was being written a ticket). He properly stated his named, told me why I was being pulled over, and asked for my license and insurance. He even sped the process up because he saw my kids in the car and noticed we were hot. No angry tones, no sense of attitudes, no sense of fear. Now, fast forward to when my friend and I were pulled over. She was pulled over for the same thing, doing 70 in a 60. Her kids were in the car as well. She had Ohio tags on her car, so of course this was the initial reason as to why he chose us, out of all the vehicles going 75 and above. This cop, though, approached her waaaay differently. He stepped up to her vehicle and IMMEDIATELY began yelling at the top of his lungs "LICENSE & REGISTRATION NOW!!!" We looked at each other, then back at him. She handed him her license and asked me to get her insurance out the glove compartment. His body language was so unsure, his voice quivered as he yelled, and he kept his hand near his waist...near his gun. My friend then stated to him "you don't have to yell"... He yelled again, "I'M NOT YELLING" then checked his tone and quickly blamed it on passing traffic. I can't help but recant that situation as I see all the news stories, social media posts, and text messages and think 'damn that really could have been us'... Then I rethink if we were men, AND black, it would have been us!! 
 It makes me sick to my stomach to know that these cops are really claiming to be THAT afraid of us that they feel they HAVE TO kill us. At the same time it freaks me out! I've NEVER in all my 27 years of being on this Earth have ever felt threatened by someone because of the pigmentation of their skin. I am more threatened by actions. In the case of my friend being pulled over, there were no actions on her end. He was volatile...all because we were black! 
I think about my Daddy, my brother, my best friends, my cousins, my godson, my close friends... I think about every black male that has made an impact on my life as if it were them....because it very well could be. I'm exhausted with seeing it. I want to do something! Not just talk but REALLY organize something to make a difference and take the necessary steps needed to stop this nonsensical bullshit!! I hope this reaches someone, somewhere that feels the same passion and ACTUALLY want to be the change!!! I'm tired of it y'all!! We have to fight the right way! 


White Poppies & Warwick Avenue

Saturday, May 21, 2016

It's like I'm caught in freshly laid cement, slowly turning into concrete, engulfing me, not allowing me to get back ... Back to fresh air, to growing, patching up the petals, healing my roots. How silly of me to think I was the only flower in your garden...or at least the most tended to, the most nourished, the one you shed your light to, ultimately. Over time I grew dehydrated, gasping for a drop of something, anything to quench my longing thirst, something to fulfill me. The sun...or maybe the storm...yes the storm cast over on me. Out from the clouds poured down the serum that I was searching for-something deeper than water. This serum, extinguished every memory, not just of you... Her too. Every elation, every delight, every bliss. Every laugh. 

Now what do I do with this? This serum has overtaken my natural yearning for Adam's ale. This is all that has been comforting my foundation. I needed to medicate, meditate... Rejuvenate. The only way I can bloom again. Spring, blossom...plant new seeds around me. Drink from new streams, I have to let these summer rains in to fructify my crop. 

I said all this to say... I forgive you... Both. I needed this to happen. I became swallowed and distracted by others' woes and life battles that I could not see my own. I thank you...both. For bringing LIFE to my forefront. This was a very difficult assessment for me, one that I did not think I would pass at all. Rage, fire, blackouts, blank outs and all. I want more for myself. This helped me get out of my writer's rut. This helped me to begin again. So once more...thank you. To be continued... 

Supanaptural Ree is back!!!

John 4:13-14 Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” 


Fashionable And Thick: Changing The Way You View Sista Big Boned

Friday, February 12, 2016







When you hear the word 'fat' what comes to mind? Obese? Or someone just larger than your "average"? Well Dee Moore, creator of Fashionable And Thick, is here to put a twist to all of that! When asked about her reasoning behind the clothing line, her response was perfectly put: 'Society always frowns upon ladies who are a size 12 & up. We have so many negative stigmatizing outlooks on us such as we are lazy, slouchy, unhealthy, unattractive and just plain out FAT! My # 1 focus is for them to feel comfortable in their skin. I want every plus sized female to know you are not alone and that you can look and feel sexy without being so revealing.' FASHIONABLE AND THICK is a t-shirt line that's changing the way fat is used, created with the plus sized female in mind. It has also grown into an ambassador brand, so ladies that means send in your info to represent!!





Speaking of representing, this summer, July 9th, 2016, is the clothing line's 2nd fashion show Fashionable And Thick Presents: Glamour, Glitz, & Curves (which also benefits breast cancer research). So you know what that means...CASTING CALL TIME!! This is not your average fashion show. Dee will be casting ladies from sizes 12-24. Being a model is NOT a requirement. "It's not all about the latest fashion trends",says Dee, "for me, I do this show every year to help uplift and empower the next plus sized female. Glamour, Glitz, & Curves is an evening of confidence and style" As I mentioned before, it's casting call time! The first casting is FEBRUARY 21ST, in Houston, TX. The 2nd is March 6th, and the third is April 3rd!! So, if you are a curvy diva and would love to showcase it while showing its perfectly fine to not be a size 2, then this show is for you!! Make sure to visit http://www.fashionableandthick.net/ to learn more about the company and the founder, and to get your presale tickets for the show!! I fully support this movement, I feel I have to put on right along my fellow thick ladies!! Share this info with everyone you know, cuz it's about to go down!! And of course, I have visuals from last year's successful show and the following casting call info/dates! Enjoy.









Lady of the hour, Dee Moore

Thanks for reading, stay positive and empowered, and remember











Premiere Week!!! Bluemercury & Sprout Tv's New Series Floogals

Saturday, January 30, 2016





Last week I got the chance to attend two great events. The 1st one was for the grand opening of Bluemercury, which is a luxury beauty shop-in-store located inside of Houston's Memorial City Mall (in Macy's). This was my first time attending an event like this so I was really pumped up about it. Seeing as how I'm trying to do a tad bit more on the makeup side and explore different brands and colors, I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to do so. There were two areas that caught my eye, the Lune + Aster bar and the Clinique Pencil Bar ::



So many gorgeous colors, so little time to choose!! The CEO's were in attendance and made sure they went around the shop to personally speak with everyone to let us know a bit about how it all began. 

Myself & the adorable Brittainy Perry of Styl'd Grace speaking with CEO Barry Beck



The company Bumble & Bumble were in the building, and the company Educator, Erin Armstrong, was showcasing their new line BB Curl which caters to curls...ALL curls! Pretty exciting since I'm a naturalista. She saw my hair and fell in love! Of course she tried a sample of the Primer and the Defining Creme on my puff!









I can honestly say the end result was given 5 thumbs up! This will be a product that I will invest in, in the near future! The Bumble & Bumble website website is hyperlinked above. And yes the line is alcohol, paraben, and sulfate free!! Make sure to go check them out! There were so many other awesome product lines, makeups, and smell good in one space so I made sure to take all the pics I could... and here's a collage to showcase the greatness of Bluemercury! Enjoy!




The 2nd event I attended was a luncheon for Sprout Tv's new original series Floogals (pronounced like Google but with an 's'). We got to sit and have group conversations with Lisa O'Brien, Sprout's Vice President of Original Programming & Development, Cady Meshnick, the Communications Coordinator, and a host of other individuals including fellow bloggers. I cannot even begin to explain how excited I was for this event simply because I'm a mom!

 With the age range being geared towards 2-6 year olds, this show is perfect for my 2 minis because it's about exploring life from their viewpoint...alien like if you will. Children see objects and places in a totally different light then adults, and this show portrays that very well. There are 3 main characters: Flo who is the only girl of the group. She also seems to be the smartest as she is the experimental, inquisitive one. Her character is a huge image for female scientists and I love that. There's Boomer who is the leader of the pack. He's the one that acts as the enthusiast. Then we have Fleeker- the klutz of the group that makes the show humorous.  Sprout sent us home with two sneak peaks of the show, which premiered January 23rd and airs daily at 8pm ET/ 7pm CST. I had my minis and my 'niece' watch it...they were glued to the screen. They absolutely loved it! 


Oh yeah, the location of the luncheon was a restaurant called Benjy's- "a modern American dining experience with warm Texas hospitality". Beautiful decor and even better menu selections!!! I will be dining there again! And as always I took photos for your viewing pleasures...happy looking lol. 



Top row: Sneak peak of an episode of Floogals,my babies and niece enjoying the show
Middle: A main entree of shrimp & grits, dessert from Benjy's
Bottom: Lisa O'Brien speking with us about the background of Sprout and Floogals

Thanks for reading, I hope you guys enjoyed. Be sure to check out all the good stuff mentioned here today! Have a great day and remember 








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